Stories of my past~

how many of you really know about my past?
few...................
and im here to share it now...
there was alot out there ignoring me, or they just using me to get what they want and then kick me away like a football being kick around the field....
they say rumours like "i stink", "im disgusting", or "fat!"
no one is willing to make friends with me...
or sometimes, i need to "take down my face" just to make friend with them... but in the end... they were just using me for something....
whenever there's a group work, i have no group or no one is willing to put me in to their group....
and when there's "friends" talking to me.... i was excited but in the end they were just making fun of me...
im always alone sitting near the corner in the classroom..
there was no one.........
unless....... my best friends who were always by my side, no matter what whether we argue or fight, she'll always be by me side until the end... and now still she's by my side whenever i need her............. :') thank you.........
i get so much pressure through those years of living in "fats!"

before that im an "anti-social" kind of person.... im afraid to face anyone out there... they were laughing behind me~ the voice surrounded me "U'RE FAT!, NO ONE WOULD LIKE U!, GET LOST!"...... :(

from the ending of the year 2010.......
i change..............................

               2010                          2011

        2012                               2013

i became a socialize person, i get along and hangout with friends...

i never want to be alone again.....

after everything change, more friends and people start to get along.

i really feel happy what i had now, but not again people start ignoring me...

i really scare that the feeling would be back again... i don't want it to be back.. :'(

i got some of that feeling is back.......... haizzz..........

words now i can use for me is "hide whatever u can, smile whenever u can" :)

smile and said "nothing", "im fine" or a simple reply "Oh" :) to cover whatever i had inside that is hurting me so much..... 

-i wish u would know....

          

test 1!! nervous...

aiyooo.. so nervous for test 1, this morning just finished Malay test... tomorrow test biology, maths, and also got oral in the afternoon and im still blogging, play phone, watch tv and so on.. haizzz... scare gonna fail my test 1... need to try hard this year, and its the last year for me already... so many to read.. stress... how i wish the test can skip a day then test again.. so that we can have more time to study and get high mark... help me god!! its was like my brain memory already full, and many other things cannot be fit inside anymore... can god help me to get another memory for me now? i really need it!!><  anyway... wish me luck then...:) test 1 i know you don't love me so pls try to love me!! 

there's more test to come: test 1, mid-year exam, june paper, test 2, final-year exam??, o'level.... and more oral?? huh?! helppppp!!! ahHHhhhHHhh... : /

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band performing for the Embassy State of Kuwait~

after performing for the 51st Independence Day & 21st Libration Day of the State of Kuwait... we're invited to have dinner with them...

taking picture with my band's friend on bus while we're getting ready to have our dinner with them... *sweating *red face.. ahahah :)

drink that taste like ginger~~ WoW...

Token of appreciation~~

make up~

make up time~~:) ehehhe... how's my make up look?? 

many pimple... haizz~~

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~celebrating the 50th anniversary of the Royal Brunei Armed Forces

Brunei Darussalam International Tattoo 2011* 31st May~2nd June 2011...

performance from the marching bands from Australia, China, Indonesia, Malaysia, Pakistan, Philippines, Singapore, Thailand, United States, United Kingdoms.... they all had a  nice performance at the Indoor Stadium, Hassanal Bolkiah... and our school band also performed for the Tattoo too... all of our school band's member had fun during the performance, abit tired and suffering but its a great experience for all of us cause we get to take picture with the band from other country and had a perfect dinner at empire... 

after the last show we've performed on 2nd June afternoon... and the next day night, our school band had been invited to have dinner at empire with the band from other country....  we had our picture taken with many people... 

 ~two of the dancer for our band~

and we've all enjoyed the dinner at empire and had fun taking picture with others~

back to brunei~

having fun celebrating grandpa's b'day yesterday and next day, we'r going to the airport at 6 o'clock in the evening....  although abit sad to leave kuching cause i had much fun there.... but i still have to leave.... :(  when we reached the airport at 6 something~ me and my parents go check in and when in...... our flight is at 7.35p.m and we still have alot of time.... we've stop by marrybrown to have dinner...

me, my father and mother shared....

and next i take a picture of the sunset at kuching~

aww~~ so miss it..