how many of you really know about my past?
few...................
and im here to share it now...
there was alot out there ignoring me, or they just using me to get what they want and then kick me away like a football being kick around the field....
they say rumours like "i stink", "im disgusting", or "fat!"
no one is willing to make friends with me...
or sometimes, i need to "take down my face" just to make friend with them... but in the end... they were just using me for something....
whenever there's a group work, i have no group or no one is willing to put me in to their group....
and when there's "friends" talking to me.... i was excited but in the end they were just making fun of me...
im always alone sitting near the corner in the classroom..
there was no one.........
unless....... my best friends who were always by my side, no matter what whether we argue or fight, she'll always be by me side until the end... and now still she's by my side whenever i need her............. :') thank you.........
i get so much pressure through those years of living in "fats!"
before that im an "anti-social" kind of person.... im afraid to face anyone out there... they were laughing behind me~ the voice surrounded me "U'RE FAT!, NO ONE WOULD LIKE U!, GET LOST!"...... :(
from the ending of the year 2010.......
i change..............................
2010 2011
2012 2013
i became a socialize person, i get along and hangout with friends...
i never want to be alone again.....
after everything change, more friends and people start to get along.
i really feel happy what i had now, but not again people start ignoring me...
i really scare that the feeling would be back again... i don't want it to be back.. :'(
i got some of that feeling is back.......... haizzz..........
words now i can use for me is "hide whatever u can, smile whenever u can" :)
smile and said "nothing", "im fine" or a simple reply "Oh" :) to cover whatever i had inside that is hurting me so much.....
-i wish u would know....
